In my own journey of learning about and embracing my sexuality and then leaving an evangelical church, I found it helpful to read books and poems, and watch videos of others who have gone through similar experiences, or discuss issues of gender and/or sexuality with religion. I found doing this helpful to better understand my own feelings and past experiences, and to better understand what I wanted, and what I would be comfortable with. One of the difficulties in leaving an evangelical context is how strict it can be, and imagining a life beyond that strict context can be difficult, so these resources are a way of opening up your imagination.
These are articles are a mix of personal essays and reflections that discuss to some degree spirituality and/or sexuality. They provide different ways of thinking about spirituality and sexuality, and provide anecdotal experiences about the two.
Dead Name, Nic Alea
My nails have grown long
enough to etch my birth name
into the thick body of a yellowed candle,
I inscribe it: old dead name,
and watch as the wax falls like rain off a crumbling tower.
In the stillness of midnight, I begin again,
I have a new name,
it sings in me and when I sing
I pray twice,
so I ask the Lord
for his utmost kindness,
O, Lord, unfurl me from this body,
this flesh that hugs bone,
pull me from this body,
not as daughter,
not as son,
but as holy ghost.
-first published in The Indianapolis Review